Hey my Girlies,
Well Blondie, I can't help but to think about you, MOVING AND A WEDDING... big hugs and good thoughts your way(())!!
This past week has been a nightmare for me. After the days without water, food, electricity, GAS everything got REALLY bad...
I developed... something horrible - I don't know if it was bacteria from tainted water, food poisoning... maybe some form of tetanus, all I know is all day Saturday and Sunday I was in and out of lucidity... I had blood coming from my nose and ears... it started as this horrible pain in my right should, you know the way the tendons twist before a migrane.... maybe it was a form of MIGRANE.. all I know is I HAVE NEVER EVER EXPERIENCED PAIN LIKE THAT.... I think if I had a gun I would have ended it. It felt like I was wrestling a demon or something... it lasted all night Saturday.... I had no phone, no electricity, no gas... due to the storm I was totally shut off - couldnt have made it to my neighbors.... and I lost count of how many advil. aspirin and Excedrin I took, enough to kill me Im sure. I had to get up and use the Chinese ball on my back to rub out the knots, that helped a lot. And have been gathering a buying herbs and for some reason had made a yarrow tincture of sorts. Somewhere during the night I remember waking up with both my nostrilS bleeding thinking, "I am going to die" I really thought I might. It was in the 40's cold, no heat.... it was awful, and I remember thinking about Nic and should I try to write him something... and what would you say to your baby if you knew you were going to die.... I finally passef out, and woke with dried blood from my nose, my lips were numb, and my right jaw was the size of a base ball. I could barely open my mouth, but I was alive. The electricity and water came on for a bit, I was able to boil water and make poultices... dont tell me we dont have healer in us. I had REAL chamomile tea and yarrow root and comforter poultices to keep on my jaw and ear. I was weak. The power went off again I slept some. I woke up about 2 freezing , but the power just came back on. I spent the next 4 hours just keeping heat and poultices on my jaw, ear and neck. I had not been able to eat anything... I havent even told you about my stomach pain, but I couldnt keep any food down - a little tea.
I have had my moments but I am on the mend. And I thought about where we came from and how life must have been for women, and the knowledge they had to have and how instinct and books took over for me. I thought about the times Grandma had 11 kids and nothing but Faith, and how it made me fight. Personally, this has been one of the worst weeks of my life and one of the bests because of the lessons it has taught me. Which I will get to later. THE BIG turn for me was yesterday (Wednesday) when my biggest pain was hunger. I wanted eggs and grits, and although I horrified the sweet boy at our little market I was able to eat eggs, toast, and tea last night. My gall bladder is really sore but I think thats due to the upset stomach. We will see....
ANYHOW.... I know this is long but it has been life changing for me...
You have to love your body and how you treat right it and think about what you put into it. THE THOUGHTS of putting ANYTHING non organic makes me physically ill. It is a BRAND NEW DAY for me and I am a born again health food nut. End of story.
I AM GOING TO THE DOCTOR BLONDIE.... LOL ! I hate doctors, but my Gall Bladder and a couple more issues need to be seen to.
I am a big believer in herbal and holistic medicine. I believe I saved me, I didnt save me Grace, God saved me, but he/she gives us tools to do with as we please. I have studied herbs for years and there is so much to learn. These were extreme conditions with the tornadoes and all but it is an extreme world. Can you go into the woods and cure your family from fever,or dysentery, draw out poison? In Alabama it's in our back yards. And we come from a long line of healers it's in our DNA. The plants will speak to you if you listen (the Indians always said they do)
The last thing I want to comment about in my lessons learned is LOVE.
I love my family SO much. We are a strong, of the land, of the wind people.
When I woke up thinking I might die, I thought about how many other people go thru this around the world, not in times of extreme disaster, but daily, just trying to go get clean water for their children to LIVE. We have to try to acknowledge that and make a difference.
My SON is my heart.
And when I thought about the possibility of dying alone... well I had Boomer, who licked my face and never left my side) I realized that I REALLY DO believe in MY happily ever after. And when all is said and done, I would rather have died alone, than in the arms of someone I settled for. I might regret those words. But I know HE is out there and HE is extraordinary... so that's my saga girls. My biggest problem now is because of the Bamboo guys not paying me and the storms- is trying to survive until I have the energy to get new clients.
and I side note - after my shower yesterday... are you grateful for hot showeres? ( you should be) I put a ponytail on the TOP of myhead and cut off about an inch and a half.... PERFECT PERFECT LAYERS.. MAYBE the best I've ever had, so I officially undamn thee Meg Ryan
Much Love to my girls,
The Brand New Old Gypsy
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