Well this is the FIRST day I actually feel a little like me in WEEKS. I was beginning to think I wasn't ever coming back. It's funny isn't it? The circles and cycles we go through. The trials and tears and the family and friends that are always there for us cheering us on, praying, laughing and crying with us.
It has been SUCH a time of change for everyone. I find myself tearing up at the strangest things. I think maybe it's just the end of a cycle and picking up and moving forward trying to redefine who I am. I was on auto-pilot survival mode for so long as a single mom, but ya know what? My baby is ok... thriving even. Not that he isn't searching for his own place and own answers, but that's just part of this thing we call life, isn't it?
So now, here I am with this life of mine... and what to do what to do? "Old enough to see behind me but young enough to feel my soul"
I feel like I am coming out of a cocoon. Maybe that's what life is - a series of rebirth, redefinings and renewals.
I am headed back home this weekend, and don't know what that will bring. I heard a line from a movie last night " I am so glad I can fit my life into 2 suitcases" lol, maybe that's me. ALL I know for right now is my son is happy, I am on the mend, Saturday Margaritas are waiting and lighten bugs are beckoning.
On a side note, I have been constantly giggling Candy Girl about you and Sex in the City .... lol... there is no way you can watch without having major epiphanies and a better understanding of girl stuff :)
"Some people are settling down, some people are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies."
I hope we all continue to find butterflies in a multitude of ways. Because although life is hard, sometimes unbearably bittersweet, we should always strive for fabulous. Always my darlings :) Thank you guys for being there.
Gypsy
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